When it comes to talking about infertility right now, I don’t have much to say. After a lot of soul searching I have found a place of peace and acceptance for our situation. The desire for a second child is still there but it is in check. The energy that I would focus on another child is now put towards exercise. This is a great distraction.
While at the gym for my free training session, the trainer asked what I did for fun? What do I do for fun? This shouldn’t be such a hard question. Well, apparently I need to have more fun. I do have a few things in the works but for now my world revolves around Ant.
I recently wrote about the constant questioning about a second child. Today was another one of those days. While sharpening pencils in the Art room today the Art teacher asked me, “How old is Ant?”
Me, “Almost two.”
Art teacher,” Are you ready for second.”
Me (caught off guard), “no.”
As soon as you say your child is almost two people assume it is time for another child. It is so unfair because TTC was the last thing on my mind and now it has been brought back to the front again. UGH! I know she meant nothing by it but these questions just unnerve me.
Update on Night Weaning: We have been night weaning Ant with the hope he will start sleeping through the night. I am happy to report he is for the most part and I haven’t nursed him at night of over a week now. I still have mixed emotions about this because if Ant wakes up DH is on duty which is great for daddy bonding but I want to be there too(it is easier to say no if I am not in the room). I hope in a month or so that this won’t be an issue and I can go soothe him without wanting to nurse him at night. He is transitioning well. and if he does wake before 6am. daddy can get him back down in less then 5mins. Go Daddy! We are in a good place.
The question of the second child is a constant and it seems our society has set a standard of 2 children in each family. We have a 3 year old and have not decided whether a second child is in our plans or even affordable. Yet people ask constantly when I plan to have another baby which brings it to the forefront of our thoughts. Be strong and enjoy all those moments with Ant. He will be growing and changing even faster in the next year and you will not want to miss one minute of it. I miss even the moments when i go to work and I do not get to enjoy time with Sadie, Tonight we played with Barbie dolls and dressed like princesses. Enjoy those moments and God will take care of the rest. My husband is a product of “you will never be able to have children” so miracles do happen and I will pray for yours.
I agree that exercise and weight loss gives me something positive to focus my energy on, however, when I lose all of the weight, I’m going to be at a total loss as to where to put my efforts towards.